memory fades

it was the swimming lesson wif dd in the pool,dvd marathon on thrillers but end up bof of us sleeping,having meals on the bed, not caring if it stains the sheets..wen everythin seems soo fine and smooth,i start my another personality of mine,which makes dd goes hais each time..i duno how it hapen but i jus hapen even me not realising it right from the start.
i myslef admitted dat i was going overboard,but i cant help but just to press on dat button n release all my nonsense rubbish to him..
dd was been very very very patient wif me,and thank God he did not blast it all out..but insted he took all in,even wen sending me home on the footstep,he still held my hands, hugged me tight,kissed me light n told me to sleep well tonite..not a single harsh words wer heard from him.i guess he realised his gf is'sick' dat she reali reali reali needs his atention so bad..
i do feel guilty doing all dat but its jus a spur of moment dat im doing it..its not pre-planned at all. and for the 1st time,i did not msg him to thank him for the wonderful date even!

Another silent treatment for me,i dunoo why,but i just happen again.n i feel like nothing has jus happen..not even a single msg/call to him.hes been busi playing soccer,dat i don mind..but the fact is,i don bother to ask abt his whereabouts,dats smth,i RARELY does.i tink im sick!

dd make a surprise confession,which reali makes me taken aback.i didnt noe how to console him either,but its reali true wat he has said.i had seen it coming but i don noe how i could ever talk to his sense.did gif him my all out of breath explaination,n after much consoling,he keep mum..dats wat he alwaes alwaes do..n i start to gif him the cold shoulder right to this morning.i tink im getiing too much,but he jus take his stride and regards like nothing hapen.